.::. i often catch myself feeling much older than i actual am; being surprised when i hear myself say ‘23’ to the question “how old are you?”.
the last few years have been jam packed with roller coaster rides of transformation that at many times seemed like the hardest moments of my life. [ i’ve never lived my life in the in between so it doesn’t surprise me that i’m capable of being overly emotional and completely rational all at the same time ] to experience so many life altering moments in such a short span of time would make anyone feel aged, right?
but today, in the midst of thinking about my career, the launch of my first single, the songs that have yet to be written or finished (and the list goes on and on), i STOPPED.
i took a deep breath. closed my eyes. listened to the waves crash against what is the most beautifully breath taking sand i’ve ever experienced and had a moment.
a moment of clarity. of joy. of peace. of happiness. of healing.
released a simple sigh of relief and smiled.
i will make more conscience efforts to have moments like this. eventually conscience efforts will evolve into natural habits and a way of life.